Lost, afraid, and fearful, with very low self-esteem and loneliness - that was me. A voracious reader since childhood, I read all kinds of books: fiction, love stories, thrillers, and loads of self-help books. Through reading, I understood some aspects of how to survive and manifest in this world. I also realised that I am a very mediocre person - not fond of studying, but naturally able to understand concepts enough to write exams; neither meticulous nor brilliant with the left brain, and lacking creativity of the right brain. I always wondered why I was like this. Somewhere along the way, I made a decision not just to survive, but to pave my own jagadu (street-smart) path in this world. From then on, life was always about struggle, manipulation, and fighting for every opportunity that came my way.
There was always a search within my heart for something I could not name. I went through many paths, wherever life took me. Some made a difference in relationships, some in health, some in finances, etc. Nothing I did gave me complete peace and harmony; the yearning was always there. My journey continued this way for 62 years of my life.
Then one day, out of the blue, in one of my spiritual groups, there was a mention of a session called ‘Yug Parivartan’, which I joined. The session was good, and I joined the Telegram group. For five continuous days, I did not stop until I had watched all the videos of Praveenji. My heart beat aflutter, and deep down something was touched and shifted. I just knew and resonated with the ideologies and the mention of being stuck in the Matrix. I had heard of Maya and knew about it, but never understood it in the way Praveenji explained in his videos.
The first retreat I attended was the Cosmic Valley Retreat in February 2024. Izumiji and Praveenji explained the quantum field of all possibilities and how we knowingly or unknowingly create whatever is happening in our lives. The universe simply says, ‘Tathastu’.
The double-slit experiment left me dazed and overwhelmed. Past and future both exist in the present moment and can be changed because of this experiment. There is no time gap between cause and effect; both exist in the same moment. Both past and future can be changed, and time can be compressed or expanded depending on the observing consciousness. Through the timeline meditation tool, we could do all this. So many tools were given in the retreat. All the meditations were 7 to 10 minutes long, yet there was a definite shift in my perception and thought process.
I started questioning what I believed in. I slowly began to see all that I had been conditioned into. Then the magic started happening. The moment it came into my awareness, effortlessly, who I was began to change.
Izumiji mentioned in that retreat that we are front-runners and that a state of abundance has entered our lives. From here on, we have to change fast and evolve further.
This thought stayed deep within my heart, and I registered for the Pune retreat.
