For a long time, life felt as though it was simply happening to me. I moved from one responsibility to another, like something I was merely moving through, carrying one responsibility after another, trusting that peace would eventually find me.
Two years ago, I attended the TGA Spiritual Retreat in Rishikesh. Something quietly shifted. I began to see life not as a series of random events, but as a layered experience ~ one designed to awaken awareness.
What once felt solid slowly revealed itself as maya
temporary, yet purposeful.
I came to understand that nothing in my life had been accidental. People, relationships, challenges, and even losses were mirrors, reflecting parts of me that needed recognition, growth, and remembrance. Each encounter carried an invitation ~
to see more clearly, to soften, to evolve.
My understanding of consciousness also deepened. Consciousness is not something we acquire or measure; it is the field in which all experience unfolds. As awareness expands, our relationship with life changes. Fear loosens its grip. The need for control softens. We move from reacting to observing.
True change begins when attention turns inward ~ to the quiet, untouched space within.
There exists an inner presence, unmarked by time, conditioning, or identity. When we begin to live from this space, the layers of the simulation dissolve naturally.
Through continued retreats and inner work, a deeper truth revealed itself to me ~ the meaning of home.
In the beginning, we seek approval, cling to opinions, and believe ownership will bring security. Life repeats these patterns until we pause and become aware. That pause is where awakening begins.
For a long time, we lived inside our stories ~ what happened to us slowly became who we believed we were.
Awakening arrives when we learn to listen without holding on, to witness without turning experience into identity. This is not forgetting the past, but remembering from a deeper place.
And then it became clear ~ home is not a place, nor something to possess. It cannot be claimed or taken away. Home exists beyond control and manipulation.
Home is an inner state, built through awareness, honesty, authenticity, and inner work
a space of love, peace, and presence.
This is the home I am returning to, with deep gratitude for my mentors, Praveen ji and Izumi ji, and with trust in the journey as it continues to unfold.
